Sundays in Europe: honest-to-God days of rest. I dragged myself outside to the Boulangerie down the street and bought a pain au chocolat (a pastry with chocolate) for dessert, which marks the extent of my outdoor ventures today. I ended up skipping the trip to the Louvre; there will be other Sundays, and I was too tired. I do not want to wear myself out and get sick again.
Classes start Thursday of this week, and I'm looking forward to it. Not only will it give me somewhat of a schedule to base my days around, I also—gasp! Shock! Horror!—like learning. And hopefully, they'll help me get a hold of this language. I can get by, but nowhere near fluent. I have to think too much before I speak.
This morning, I got to thinking about a few things. And I tend to ask the people around me their opinion before making decisions about anything. Even if I know which way I want to decide in my head, I have to seek approval from friends and family. It's not that I can't make my own choices, I've usually already picked a side before voicing the decision aloud. I just seem to need to justify my choice by getting everyone else to agree. If I present the choice to someone, and they chose differently, it makes me feel like I've chosen wrong. But that's stupid, and I know it. Everyone thinks differently and has different opinions; people disagree. I'm well aware of that except, it seems, for when it comes to choices I have to make. I want everyone to be in agreement with me.
Bottom line: I don't want to disappoint people..
I honestly have no idea where I'm going with this. Just a note to myself that I don't have to justify anything.
"It's the quintessence of royalty to project nobility of spirit and strength of character to the weaker masses."
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