Saturday, December 20, 2008

join the triumph of the skies

For lunch today I'm having a chili-and-rice microwaveable meal, with emmental cheese that I sprinkled on top. Mmm om nom nom. Very delicious.

Tomorrow I have the first half of a huge test in my cours practique. Tonight will involve studying. But tomorrow night, a few of us have a sort-of goodbye dinner planned at a fondue restaurant in Montmartre. It seems so surreal that I'll be home in a few days, but then again, it seemed so surreal that I'd be spending the semester in Paris, and now I have.

Speaking of surreal, apparently today a bomb was found in the Primetemps store in central Paris?

And while we're on the subject of surreal, how about the fact that I spent the weekend in Budapest, Hungary? As in, Eastern Europe? As in, a city where NO ONE speaks English, and the language is so different from any other language that it's impossible to even attempt to understand. The exchange rate was lovely, though, at 1 dollar equalling about 200 Forint (abbreviated Ft—so we took to calling them feet, seeing as we had no idea how to pronounce "Forint"). When I paid for pizza, the bill was 2,690 Ft. Sounds like a lot, right? That's around 10 euro. It was cool to hold a bill that read "20,000".

Ever seen the movie Eurotrip? Absolutely horrible film, but their depiction of Eastern Europe is accurate: bleak and depressing. The stone buildings are usually a darker stone, looking damaged or tarnished, and being an incredibly impoverished country, well, it's just bleak. The public transportation is shady, it's filthy, and basically the word I uttered most in response to the city was "sketchy." The first night, we got a cab from the airport to our hostel, and when the driver stopped, it was on a dark, deserted street across from the train tracks, with broken chain link fences and scary dogs barking on the other side. He said "This is it" and I just sat there in the back seat going "Uuuuh. This? Way sketchy." It turned out most of the city is like that. The hostel itself, however, was a house owned by a couple of hippies that has been painted brightly and decorated with the usual tie-dye/Bob Marley/peace/OM pictures and incense burning on a table by the front desk. The guys who worked there were the pot-smoking, don't-shave, typical modern-day hippies.

We slept in a dormitory style room with around 10 beds, storing our backpacks in lockers, and getting about 7 hours of sleep the whole weekend. Although I think I averaged less than that given unforseen (unpleasant) circumstances Sunday night . . . which I really will be able to laugh about once I'm far enough removed. That hasn't happened yet.

Long story short: Budapest is pretty in a sort-of second-world way. Not third-world, or completely Westernized. A mix. Lots of castles and cool old stuff, very different from France in the architecture. I wish I'd gotten to go to the Turkish baths they have there (and are famous for—natural hotsprings under the city), but one member of our group didn't want to go, and two more didn't have bathing suits, so that plan got nixed. I got lovely photos of one of the outdoor hotsprings though, which I shall be handing over to my dad when I get home (in four days—holy cow). Also, you can buy 4 4-packs of 55cl Heineken for, like, 5 euro. Not that I know this from personal experience, or anything. I'm just saying, hypothetically, that you can.

Monday morning, bright and early, I got to the Budapest airport to fly home and spent the entire flight hoping I wasn't going to puke. The flight was about an hour late, so needless to say I didn't get to class. Thankfully, I'd already informed my teacher I might not be there, and it's all good.

Yikes. I need to start packing.

PS. The Danube makes the Seine look like a creek in someone's backyard.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

and i was as wild, even wilder than they

Tomorrow I leave for Budapest!

But today, I had class at noon, as per usual, and found it extremely difficult to drag myself out of bed at almost 11. My roommate left around then for her own flight to Budapest, which was today along with her boyfriend. We're going to meet up when I get there tomorrow. I get to class and we spend most of it going over how to say "this/that/those/these", in French. There are too many variations. On peut dire "ceux", "celles", "celui", "celle", "ce" "ce à quoi", "ce pour quoi", "ce quoi", "ça" (but that one only works when speaking, never for writing), "cela", "celle-ci", "celui-ci", "ceux-ci", "celles-ci" and the list goes on. After cours practique was my final class of phonetiques before Christams vacation, and I got my second test back. My two test scores for phonetiques are both the best grade in the class: 20/20 and 19/20. Bascially, that means I know how to pronounce things correctly.

And can I just add how frustrating it is to be learning a language in which the spelling and the prononciation depends entirely upon which century the word itself was created in? And it's not something that's obvious, or that has a pattern to follow, it's completely random and a matter of life-long memorization. Fun.

(I also find myself melanging (<--case in point) French and English unintentionally in my head or when I write. My spelling ability has gone completely out the window, too. And I used to be a damn good spell-er.)

Aphrodisiac, anyone? I went out early in the evening (as the French are wont to do) for a brief pre-meal. One of the girls ordered a platter of oysters (38,60 euro! oy!) so I was inspired to try them. To sum up: they're slimy, and don't taste horribly of anything other than whatever you decide to put on them (lemon juice and some vinagrette), but they look, frankly, like something you'd find up a troll's nose. I ate one before I decided that was brave enough and hey, at least I tried it, right?

It's bitterly cold here. And by bitterly, I mean the highs are in the mid-thirties. The sun is rarely seen, and there's a nice wind that makes your entire face hurt and is the reason earmuffs were invented, contrary to what my parents probably think. Budapest is only marginally warmer, from the forecast.

I finally got around to giving my host family the card my mom sent me (to give to them), along with a few Little Debbie Christmas Tree cakes, which she also sent me a box of. Those conversations are always awkward. I hope they don't think us Americans are gross after eating those. I adore them, but who knows? When I ate the first one after being here for 3 months, I almost spat out the first bite, it was so sweet. I didn't realise how much sugar we put in everything until I got unused to it.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

and we wonder how it will feel

10 days from today I'll be on my way home. Have I really been here for 3 months? Apparently.

Yesterday morning I got up early with a few other students to go to the catacombs of Paris. Something like 160 kilometers of tunnels beneath the city that were created when mining the stone used to build half the area. It's been both a substitute graveyard and a headquarters for military operations. Back in Napoleonic times, the cemeteries of Paris were overflowing (literally, one got so full that bodies burst out of the ground in a sort of landslide, spilling into a nearby apartment building—gross! Imagine coming home to that?) and even more bodies were just being buried in local parks (because the Edict of Nantes had been revoked and Protestants weren't allowed to be buried in cemeteries). So it was decreed that around 6 million bodies would be buried in the catacombs. I'm glad I didn't have the job of moving the bones and then arranging them inside these tunnels. Back then, candles were used to light the way, and sometimes the flame would go out. People got lost in the tunnels and died there.

Of course I loved the place. Historic and morbid. I did, however, find myself squeamish about touching any bones (no one else in the group was willing to touch them either, which is probably a good sign). Taking pictures for your viewing pleasure (or horror) was another story:


Classes are winding down, in other news, and I'm having exams interspersed with exposées. I feel like I'm in real school for the first time all semester. This weekend I head to Budapest for a few days, where I might be going caving. It depends on whether or not the hostel will arrange a special weekend tour for our group, because usually they only do caving during the week.

I know I'm not getting enough sleep, which is why tonight I've designated as going-to-bed-early night. In the morning I want to go by the Richard le Noir market that I missed Sunday for being too tired and in order to do that I have to get up at 8:30.

My list of Christmas presents-to-get is about halfway checked off. Some people are harder to shop for than others, but the market should have some cool things. If not, there's Budapest and a whole week left.

I'm looking forward to sleeping in my own bed, but I'll miss the sight of the Eiffel Tower on my walk to school everyday. The ease of the metro, where I don't have to get in a car and drive (if I even remember how). I must start figuring out how to pack the things I'm bringing home into my suitcase. This semester has gone by so fast. If I weren't coming back this would be a lot harder

Monday, December 8, 2008

it's a trick to make you buy stuff to go with your kitchen sink

"Alone" Edgar Allen Poe

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

Saw this poem today and I remembered why I liked it so much.

Anyway, this weekend has mostly been spent sleeping and preparing a 15 oral presentation on the portrait of Louis XIV by Hyacinthe Rigaud that I have to give tomorrow in my painting class, at the Louvre, standing in front of the actual painting. The idea is cool but the reality is more work than I really want to do.

In addition to school work, I spent the evening going back and forth to the laundromat. Walking down the street on my way there, I saw a man leading a string of donkeys dressed up as reindeer. Completely random group of donkeys under holiday lights, next to cars and trucks and parking meters, and no one pays them any mind. Next there was a couple in the laundromat making out while waiting for their clothes to dry. Public place, brightly lit and not at all empty, and this girl just climbs on her boyfriend's lap and—you get the point. These are the images that stuck with me throughout the day, for some reason.

Food from home that I found myself missing today: chicken pot pie and popcorn. In addition to burritos, which I've been missing since I got here.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

la terre entière, en parfaite harmonie, vit sa plus belle histoire

The Sorbonne has in each classroom a coat rack with wooden hangers. Chalk boards are used instead of dry-erase. And they have a light to specifically illuminate the board. I think that's a nice indication of where the French rank education in their priorities. Although the chalk board might seem random, they never have markers die out halfway through class and because the classroom comes equipped with boxes of chalk, they don't run out of that either.

"We could've been killed. Or worse: expelled." -(Pop quiz: place that quote.)

This update comes to you from a day of classes (9:00 to 18:00) and a boredom hits whenever I'm in a classroom and lack any creative writing inspiration. It's sad that though I listen with one ear and never take notes, I still get the best grade on my Societé Française test. 18/20. Maybe a tad unfair that half the questions were about French history, history buff (not to mention major) that I am.

Yesterday in the late evening I went out to dinner at Breakfast in America, the American diner I've talked about before. I had eggs, pancakes, and bacon. Real bacon. We'd planned to go to the movies (the Duchess) but it got to be late and we did have class today. Instead we walked along the Champs Elysee lit up for Noël. Up and down the street they've set up these little white houses that during the day are shops and cafes. Some sell scarves, hats, ties, others sell Christmas decorations and trinkets, and at the cafe stands, they serve what's called vin chaud. Hot wine. It was incredibly cold last night, with spitting rain, so we got cups of said vin chaud, sipping it as we walked beneath white-lit trees. Smelling strongly of wine but tasting a mix of wine and cider, it made the perfect finish to the evening. I'm bringing home a bottle for Christmas (along with a Beaujolais-Nouveau and a wine from the Pays d'Oc).

This morning I have my early class so getting up wasn't fun before the sunrise.It gets light around 8:30 and starts getting dark at 16:00. Class is booooooring hence I get the chance to write all this. Then I have French class from 12 to 14 (cours practique) and a make-up painting class this afternoon at the Louvre. Time flies fo a history major in a city where churchs a hundred years old are new. Which means it's already December and tonight is the Lion King.

In French Society today, we're discussing food. In the Middle Ages, they didn't have tomatoes, potatoes, corn, chocolate, or coffee; meat was reserved for the nobility and the wine was undrinkable by today's standards. Cabbage and turnips were staples fo the diet, along with a grey-ish or yellow-ish colored wine. Forks didn't exist until the 16th century. They'd keep bread for years, making it not just moldy but hard as brick. In order to eat it, they had to put it in their soup. And here I think a baguette is inedible after two days.

Which is a thought that reminded me of a comment I made last week regarding a certain fad of the moment. "I think if I hear anymore fangirl squeeing over Twilight, I'm going to beat someone with a two-day old baguette." Needless to say, a months old baguette would be much more effective. The point being, of course, that I am sick of this Twilight obsession. In order for my venting to make sense, it requires some exposition:

Twilight is a book series by Stephanie Meyer about an ohsospecial girl named Bella and a vampire named Edward. Classic vamp love story: he thinks he can't be with her because (gasp!) he's dead and he'd have to make her dead too. Oh, wah. Then there's a bad vampire (versus Edward, who only drinks animal blood) who wants to kil Bella. Edward (::enter swooning fangirls::) saves her; end of first book; enter guilt about putting her in danger; cue Edward taking off for the unknown. Meanwhile, Bella spends the second book whining, pining, and trying to get herself killed because (oh noes!) Edward left her. Her werewolf neighbor tries to win her over because he loves her and they make out. Edward returns, there's a whole other book of will-we-won't-we angst between the couple, and then the fourth, most recent book. Edward and Bella get married, go on a honeymoon (but no sex), Bella gets pregnant with a half-vampire baby that kills her from the inside and fully develops in only a month. In a truly grotesque and over the top scene, the baby (unfortunately named Renesme—Rene and Esme being the names of Bella and Edward's respective mothers) bursts out of Bella's stomach, killing her quite dead. Edward decides now's a good time to vampifiy her, and the new mommy awakes, reborn, with superpowers and better at being a vampire than those who have been the undead for hundreds of years. Ohsospecial Bella, remember? It's a happy little family, including werewolf Jacob, who fins out when he first looks at baby Renesme that she is his True Love and Soulmate. ("Hey, babe, there was this one time I made out with your mom . . .")

But it's romantic. Or so say all the preteen, teen, and young adult women who adore these books. Okay, fine, to each their own, right? And if the purple prose does it for 'em, well, it's just more proof that few appreciate good writing. (An example of purple prose would be: Sue was beautiful, with long waves of chocolatey brown hair and sparkling emerald eyes.") Except in these books, Edward has "topaz" eyes and "sparkling" skin (literally—he sparkles in the sunlight. Dazzles.) Can these books get anymore ridiculous?

Oh, wait. Yeah they can. Because I haven't even gotten to the reason I cannot condone the reading of these books. They're a joke, bien sûr, poorly written, but mostly harmless, right?

Except they're not. The relationship between Edward and Bella is the definition of unhealthy. Around 70% of what ol' Eddie tells his lady-love is in the imperative—a demand. An order. And she "obey[s] silently". In one particular scene, she tries to leave but Edward grabs the back of her shirt and tells her, "You're not going anywhere" and not in a playful way. Edward—the guy hundreds of thousands of young girls think is oh-so-romantic and oh-so-sweet and oh-so-perfect and gosh! I just want my own Edward—breaks into Bella's room back in the first book and sits in the corner to watch her sleep. She has no idea he is there.

That? Not romantic. That? Is creepy. It's out-and-out stalking. How these books got to be so popular and how these girls can think such misogynistic behavior is romantic is beyond me.

Whoa. Once I get on a tangent . . . .

One of the other AIFS students has started packing. We go home in two and a half weeks. I can't believe I've been here for going on three months.

À demain.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

shall i play for you pa-rum-pa-pum-pum

Je ne pourrai pas dormir toute la journée comme aujourd'hui. J'ai trop de faire. La lessive, les devoirs, le menage, recharger mon passe navigo, etc.

Donc je dois me coucher plus tôt qu'hier.

I went out tonight to get dinner and groceries, and lo and behold, the city was lit up. This is the street I live off of:


They certainly take their Christmas seriously here. I'm excited for the official season. Despite the cold, it's one of my favorite times of the year.

Friday, November 28, 2008

hang a shining star upon the highest bough

The sun set today at 16:58, also known as far too early. I guess I really am living up north.

Thanksgiving does not exist here, though I wish you all a very happy one with lots of turkey and stuffing (and pumpkin pie mmmmm). I'll be dressing up in my new shoes and black dress for the dinner prepared for us American kids who are used to stuffing our faces today.

In French class this afternoon, we had two tests: one a written exam where we had to tell (using the passé composé and the imparfait and the plus-que-parfait) how we've changed from who we were five years ago. That was interesting. The other test was a listening exercise, where we listend to some snippets of French radio and had to answer questions. That one I bombed. The sound quality was really crappy, thanks to it being radio and interviews with people over telephone on the radio. But on the up side, we got out of class early, and I had time to get a panini jambon before phonetiques.

I went shopping yesterday at H&M even though we have those in the States, but they cater to different (very different) tastes and the clothes here are much more my style than the H&Ms I've been to before. It's getting to be automatic, moving around the city and using the metro regularly. Speaking of, I need to get my passe navigo recharged for December (that's the metro pass, in case you didn't know).

I'm not homesick in the sense that I want to be home. It just feels weird not to be. I don't like missing out on things, and this time of year especially, I'm so accustomed to being around family.

Monday, November 24, 2008

it's the kind of thing you get when you're not looking

It's snowing today in Paris.

Not that it's adhering or accumulating, but snow is coming down and not just one or two flurries. Which I suppose is Nature's way of making up for the past two days of being absolutely, unbearably cold. Snow and Christmas are the only things that make winter worthwhile, and the week ahead looks to be the coldest we've yet had, with highs of 40 at most.

I have classes all week, including a test Thursday, because Thanksgiving doesn't exist here. The AIFS staff is holding a Thanksgiving dinner for us though, complete with turkey, stuffing, and pumpkin pie (mmm). We have to dress up to the event, which means I need to go buy shoes and skin-tone hose. I have boots and I have tennis shoes; no shoes for going with a dress. It's tragic.

This week was a bit jam-packed. I had that painting test on Monday, then a test in French Society on Wednesday, and a grammar test in French on Thursday. Wednesday night I had a classical concert on the Champs Elysee which was good for the first hour, boring the second. I love music, but those seats were uncomfortable, I was exhausted, and one song—one song—lasted an hour. These songs were written in a time when the only way to hear music was to go to a concert or play it yourself, and there was nothing better to do with your time (no listening to music while doing homework, no listening to music while you read, etc.) so these concerts were a big deal. They had to last awhile. Now they don't. I can listen to these songs on my own if I wish, while I'm on the metro in the morning or falling asleep at night. Seeing the performace live is always better, of course, but keep it shorter than two hours. Especially if you're going to sit your audience in seats with backs that point inward and are lacking in butt-cushions.

In other news, I made plans this week for two trips: one in February to Scotland (with another girl from the south—we're going to freeze!) and one to Budapest the weekend before I leave Paris for Christmas break (mid-December). I'm also in the midst of planning a short weekend in Strasbourg, where they have spectacular Christmas decorations and festivals going on from 29 Nov. thru 23 Dec. I can get a round-trip flight for $30 on AirFrance, but the taxes are what kill you. It's so worth it though. I'm so incredibly lucky to get to do all this, and experience all this. I'm hoping to visit Vienna, Prague, and Florence too at some point next semester; I've been talking with one girl who's also staying the year about a trip to Germany (Berlin and Munich, mainly). So that's my Christmas wish list: money for travel. Or clothes for the Northern European climate, which I am severely lacking in. But mostly money for travel because vain thing that I am, I do so like clothes shopping.

I learned new curse words in French, too, which is always interesting.

Friday was a walking tour of Montmartre, the hill to the north of the Seine, where one can find Sacre Coeur and the Moulin Rouge. It's an infamous artist hang-out, home to Picasso, Van Gogh, Toulous-Lautrec, and many more. Because it's situated so high up, it's windy and very cold, but offers an amazing view of Paris as a whole. I think of all the places in Paris I've been so far, Montmartre is my favorite. It's quiant, with little streets and cute buildings, lots of history, and home to the last vineyard in Paris (apparently, though, the wine is so horrible it's literally undrinkable). It's home, too, to a cabaret where I intend to go one weekend, in which there are no can-can dancers and the thing to do is sit around and sing while you drink. Supposedly a very Parisien experience, and the building couldn't be cuter. It was originally the hang-out of every n'er do well and criminal of the area; then it was bought and the new owner wanted to make it less attractive to the rough crowd. So he hired a painter (A. Gile, hence the name of the cabaret: Agile Lapin—translating to agile bunny) to paint a fluffy bunny on the front. No tough-guys are gonna go there, right? And it worked! Cleaned up the place considerably. Picasso hung out at this cabaret in his time. Gave them his paintings instead of money.

The square where the artists hang out and offer to paint you at exorbitant prices is where, back in the day, nuns used to hang people who didn't pay the tax on their alcohol. And a little further up is the metro stop Abbesses, where during the Revolution, the abbesse of the church was beheaded. The place has a morbid history, going all the way back to its name: Montmartre. Martyr Mountain, basically. It's said that Saint Denis was the first person to bring Christianity to the area of Paris, and when the people there heard of the new religion, they didn't like it or him who brought it, so they beheaded him. His corpse then picked up his own head, washed it off in the horses' trough, and walked all the way to the nearest consecrated ground (now aptly named St. Denis) and buried himself there.

Sacre Coeur is actually one of the newest churches in Paris. It was started in 1875 as a dedication to France making it through the loss of the Franco-Prussian war. It wasn't finished until 1914, when the outbreak of WWI delayed the consecration of the place, so it wasn't officially a basilica until 1919. This is what the Parisiens consider "new". The stone it's made out of looks so white not because it's frequently cleaned, but because the type of limestone gets whiter when it rains. Nifty, huh? And it's home to the largest mosaic in Europe, that covers the ceiling and walls of the center of the basilica. Like St. Paul's in London, you're forbidden from taking pictures inside, but unlike St. Paul's, you don't have to pay admission fees. This is why I like the French.

After the tour, we went out to dinner and I sampled the Beaujolais Nouveau (it was just released Wednesday night at midnight). It was quite good, though what do I know about wine other than what I like and don't? I'm bringing home a bottle to have at our Christmas Eve celebration.

Saturday, with a high not out of the 30s, we went to Versailles. Me being the resident expert on Marie Antoinette and the French Revolution, I refrained from correcting our tour guide when she made grevious errors in historical fact. Not everyone loves history like I do and I think I'm finally learning not to correct teachers when they're wrong. They don't like it much. It would take a good two full days to see the entire inside of the chateau, and another two days to see the gardens. Add two more days for visiting the Grand and Petit Trianons. The place is enormous. The chateau itself has over 700 rooms and was home to more than 10,000 people prior to the Revolution. We saw the main u-shape: the king's apartments, the queen's apartments, the Hall of Mirrors, the chapel, and the marble courtyard. I bailed before we toured the gardens though, because I couldn't bear the cold and the wind that was about to tear my face off. I get to go back in the spring anyway, when the fountains will be turned on and I'll be much more open to pulling my hands out of my pockets to take pictures.

Now I'm resting, listening to Christmas music, and eating a rasberry tart (my parents were getting on my case about eating more fruits and veggies ::grin:: ). I picked up my room and did laundry today, and I'm reading yet another biography of Marie Antoinette (it's one that I haven't yet read, surprisingly, seeing as I've read at least 5 already, plus two more that focused on Louis XVI and/or their attempted escape to Varennes). I tried to find some "French" Christmas music, but I discovered that for the most part, they listen to the same things we do: Nat King Cole, Frank Sinatra, etc. I did find a nice version of Noël Nouvelet on iTunes, sung by Loreena McKennitt. And "Oh Come, Oh Come Emmanuel" by Enya, which is hauntingly beautiful. I'm a fan of this holiday, for the spiritual aspect and not the religious. I love the feeling in the air, the music, the decorations and the general cheer. Which is why I'm in love with Paris; there are decorations everywhere, and the city is lit up at night. Friday after dinner, we went on the ferris wheel that's at the Place de la Concorde and it looks down the Champs Elysee which was all aglow. Lovely.

I'm a little homesick, and am glad to be going home in a few weeks. But I'm just as glad that I'll be coming back, because I'm not ready for this adventure to be over. I'm glad to be where I am; I just miss what's familiar (and, admittedly, what's easy).

Monday, November 17, 2008

these are the years we're given

Thursday, November 13, 2008

dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true

This is going to be a long post. As you know, I spent the weekend in la bella Roma (I so don't speak Italian) and it was marvelous. We had spectacular weather—sunny, warm, blue skies, and I could wear my tank tops again. I met up with someone from high school that I haven't seen since graduation and reminisced about evil Berini and IB (and how easy college has been in comparison). I ate pasta and/or pizza at every meal, and it was all excellent. Our hostel was relatively cheap (for a three person suite, it was 90 euro a night, split three ways, so 30 euro a night) and clean, and provided a free breakfast every day. And though I had gelato twice a day and pasta countless times, I walked off every single calory I ate. Rome is a city without a decent metro (it has one, but only two lines and nowhere near as comprehensive as Paris) and there was a public transportation strike on Monday that rendered the buses and what metro there is useless. Our hostel was located in one far corner of Rome, and the Vatican (one of our main destinations) in the opposite end of the city, with the colosseum and Roman ruins to the far south (the corner opposite the Vatican). I stupidly brought only my pair of heeled black boots, which are comfortable, but after walking the 1,000 or so steps up to the top of St. Peter's dome on the first morning, my feet were down for the count. Except I only had two full days in Rome, and there was no way I was going to spend them nursing my feet. So I walked. It wasn't until Monday evening that I finally gave in and bought new shoes, pretty red New Balance tennis shoes. They weren't the fluffy clouds and massage my feet needed, but they helped.

The first day we got up and took the metro over to the Vatican, where we waited in line to go into the St Peter's basilica, and then found our way up into the dome. Smart tourist people that they are, the Vatican had a small cafe halfway up where you could buy water and/or caffeine in various forms. After that, I got separated from the group when I met Armanda for lunch and spent the rest of the day wandering the city, half trying to find the group and half taking pictures of the gorgeous light at dusk. I walked my way down the riverside and around the Colosseum, then up past the Roman forum and over to the Pantheon. Then I got a phone call from the rest of the group telling me they were at the Trevi Fountain, so I hoofed it over there and we went exploring to find a place for dinner. One restuarant had pasta plates for 5 euro and offered us a free bottle of wine; we went there. It was good wine, too, costing 20 euro a bottle normally and we got it for free. I headed to bed relatively early that night to save myself from going bar hopping with some of the other kids who came along. My feet hurt too much and I didn't want to spend any money on drinks, which get expensive.

Then Monday, we got up and walked down to the Colosseum where we went in and explored. I'd already been there, but as a history major, I'm never adverse to going again. And then I lead the way across the city back to the Vatican, so we could go to the Sistine Chapel as it was closed on Sunday. To get to the chapel, you have to walk through a maze known as the Vatican Museum, and they lead you all over the place, up and down stairs, through winding halls and loop-de-loops. When you get there, they forbid you from taking pictures even without flash, but I did anyway, holding my camera at waist height or on my shoulder and clicking. What I learned about the Vatican is that it's huge. My first thought walking through the halls was that it reminds me of Fontainbleu. Not St. Peters, because many churches are elaborate, but the rest of the Vatican, the museum and the various apartments at one point occupied by popes. How can a religion that preaches the non-material (and the evil of the material, the evil of wealth and greed) justify living in such luxury? It's not for the glorification of God, it's for their own comfort and extravagance. God doesn't live there, the popes and priests and bishops and cardinals do. That would be one of the reasons why the Reformation occurred, I suppose, but it's not like it did any good.

Ah, well.

After the Sistine Chapel, it was time for dinner. I bought my new shoes as we walked across town trying to get to the Spanish Steps (where we'd planned to get dinner) but as we realized we had gotten turned around and were back near the Pantheon (opposite direction of the Spanish Steps), we decided to just stop at the closest affordable restaurant. I found a vending machine that had bottles of presecco nearby. For dinner I had tortellini in a cream sauce with ham (which is more like bacon), and then a cheese cake for dessert and a jug of the red house wine. Fabulous. But we found ourselves still hungry, and went over to a Burger King for some junior whoppers. Italian and French food might be delicious, but so is American food. Some of what I miss: Chick-fil-A, Moe's, Quiznos, hot dogs, cake.

The weekend in Rome was fun. Tuesday morning we got up at 3:30 AM to get to the airport for a 7 AM flight back. We arrived at Ciampino airport at 5:00 in the morning, got in line to check-in, and puzzled over the large groups of people hanging out in the lobby of the airport, some even sleeping on the floor. I distinctly remember thinking I'd never sleep on a filthy airport floor. After about an hour of standing in a line where no one was moving and no one was even behind the check-in counter, we happened to look up at the screen of departures to find our flight had been delayed with an expected departure time of 17:15, also known as 5:15 PM.

We were sure it had to be a typo. A sudden 10 hour delay? There was no one around to ask (cheap airline, cheap service) so we sat and waited. Over the course of next few hours, we learned piecemeal that no flights were coming in or out of the airport, and that we'd be lucky to leave at 5. We watched and listened as flight after flight was cancelled, and ate what junk food we could find at the one "restaurant" at this airport (and it had really crappy food—I'd pick starving over eating one of their sandwichs). More and more it looked like we wouldn't even get out of Rome until the next day. Apparently a plane the day before had been hit by birds and was forced to make an emergency landing on the runway. A few people had minor injuries, and by Italian law, they're not allowed to move the plane until the investigation is finished. So the airport was essentially closed. A single computer terminal in the airport offered internet, so I waited an hour in line (nothing better to do, after all) to check on flights out of the other Rome airport and any potential of getting a train or bus to Paris. One of the main Italian airlines, Alitalia, was having a strike that day, and so flights out of the other airport weren't guaranteed and those that were had no space available. We decided to stick it out with the flight we'd already paid for, and spent 12 hours—twelve hours—sitting on the floor of the airport. I even laid down with my bag as a pillow to try and get sleep (impossible). Amazing what a few hours change, isn't it?

At about 3 in the afternoon, 12 hours after we woke up, the screen finally announced that our flight had been moved to the other airport and they would bus us over there eventually. Evenutally meaning 5:30. A bus showed up outside where several hundred of us stood with our luggage in clumps, waiting to board and get a move on. And then it was chaos. Free-for-all. Lord of the Flies meets The Terminal. It was a mob fighting, stomping, pushing, shoving, smacking, smashing their way onto the bus that could only hold about 30 people. And we were six people trying desperately not to be separated in a foreign country where none of us spoke the language. People would've stepped on me to get on that bus, and if I'd fallen over, I'd have been trampled. It seriously made me mad, and sad. This wasn't even a fight for survival, for food, it was about getting on a bus first, and people would've killed over it. Not exaggerating.

I did make it on the bus, but not in time to get a seat, so I had to wait for the next one. But when we arrived at the new airport, we got to the check-in counter where the people from the other bus were already congregated, and it was yet another mob to get to the front first. A slower, more subtly vicious mob, but nonetheless, disgusting. A lot of it was probably the four hours of sleep and the twelve hours in an airport doing nothing, but I hated all people at that point and shoved my way to the front with stepping on some toes and well-placed elbows. An hour or two later, I was seated on a plane and waiting to take off at 8:30 PM, 13 and a half hours after I was supposed to take off. Got back to Paris, took a bus back into the city (an hour long ride), and hopped on the very last metro back home (12:30 AM). I only barely made it, and guys on the train had to pry open the doors for me after they'd already closed. I'd been awake since 3:30 in the morning, and had been in a state of perpetual stress and frustration. I made it back to my room at 1 o'clock this morning.

Needless to say, I skipped class today. I didn't drag myself out of bed until 2, after which I got a shower and headed out to the grocery store to stock up for the week. I dropped my clothes off at the laundromat, and ran to the Monoprix (like Target), took my bags home, went back out to the Franprix (a small grocery store), took my bags home, went to the laundromat to transfer clothes to the dryer, watched them dry, then packed them up in my bag and walked to the patisserie/boulangerie down the street to get dinner. But they were out of sandwichs, so I settled for eating canned ravioli (amazingly yummy) and buying some dessert. I'd post a picture but for some reason it isn't uploading. But it's a chocolate cake with custard and strawberries in the middle, and a chocolate frosting on top.

It occurred to me this weekend, as I walked around the Roman ruins: what did the medieval people think of them? What did they make of these ruins they built their cities around, that were made of stone and carefully crafted for beauty as well as function? Obviously some people were educated and knew about the Romans, vaguely, but what did the average, illiterate person think? They knew there was a civilization before them, but did they wonder why they'd been so much more advanced? I wonder what it was like back then to walk by those ruins and just gape, not knowing what they were or who had really built them or how. Not knowing the meaning behind the freizes, frescos and sculptures.

I love old stuff, but there's simply not enough of it left and what is left has been tampered with. Or destroyed in war. Or replaced with the modern. I wanna know what it was actually like way back when, and I want to see what they might have seen. A frustrating desire to have.

PS. I bought the French version of Ramen noodles today. We'll see if they measure up.

Friday, November 7, 2008

pray for peace and pray it's enough

It's been a good week. Other than the weather (rainy, cold), both my country and my state elected the people I was rooting for; the first time since 1976 that North Carolina has gone democrat in a presidential election. And then my brother finally got his butt in gear and proposed. So he's engaged and I feel it's been a long time coming. Yay! "A wedding! I love weddings!"

Props to those who get the quote. Those who don't, boo.

I also had dinner tonight at "Breakfast in America", a diner that serves honest-to-God American food. I ordered a bacon cheeseburger, fries, and a milkshake. It was amazing. But I'm going back there sometime to order their breakfast, which is available all day, and they serve pancakes and American-style bacon. I. Cannot. Wait.

Saturday night I leave for a short trip to Rome. A long weekend and I'm going to Rome. Life is good. I'm excited for gelato and pizza, and I'm going to be seeing an old friend from high school too who's studying abroad there for the semester. Good times. I'll be sure to have someone take a few photos of me so you can see that I'm actually here and not just making this all up from a dorm room in Columbia. But also for me, so that I can see that I'm actually here and not in an extremely vivid La-La land, which has been known to happen from time to time.

In political news, I'm pleased with Obama's chose as Chief of Staff, and I'm liking the people he's got picked out so far for his administration. Experience, intelligence, and a willingness to listen and change are what we need in our leaders right now. Hope, too, and not this fear-mongering of the modern world where parents don't let their kids play in the backyard unless they can see them at all times. Those who claim it's Obama's fault our economy continued to go to pot in the past two days can just answer me this: what exactly is he supposed to do when he's not even the president yet? Economies are reactionary things, especially when they consist of stock markets and corporations. The impact we're feeling now was created in the past few years, not last night.

That's all to say for today. I'm living an amazing enough life that people actually want to read about it? So that's pretty cool. I hope I remember all this in my old age.

PS. Paris has Christmas decorations up.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

les derniers seront les premiers, dans l'autre realité, nous serons princes d'éternité

I love elections. They're like Christmas; the anticipation is the best part. You open the presents Christmas morning, and for a few hours, maybe, you're excited and go, "Cool! New stuff!" But then it wears off, and it's just more stuff cluttering up your room, with decorations that no longer feel holiday-y and have to be taken down. It's the weeks leading to Christmas that have a magical feel, and today it's the hours of nail-biting, will-we-won't-we that's so exciting. No matter who wins the election, after the initial glow wears off in a day or two (unless McCain wins. For me, that will be the end of faith in humanity, though I know there are those out there who will celebrate should the worst happen), the nation goes back to the way it always has been, and while change might come, it will be so slow that we won't notice until it's over. But there's something wonderfully exciting about the unknown, and still having hope that the best case can happen, and fighting fear that the worse case will happen.

Go vote, one and all! Unless you're voting for McCain, in which case, please don't. In fact, if you're voting for McCain, I would suggest picking up a book and educating yourself with a few things called facts. And you probably won't like a lot of what I say in this blog, seeing as I'm liberal and proud of it.

I voted for Obama back in September. I'm for a single-payer health care system, I'm for raising taxes on those who make over 250,000 a year, I'm pro-choice, I'm for allowing gays to marry if they want to, I'm pro-gun control, I'm for researching alternative fuels and NOT drilling in Alaska, I'm for acknowledging that Israel can do wrong ("Peace, Not Apartheid") , I'm for negotiating first and going to war only as a last resort, I'm for peace, I believe our "homeland security" efforts should be focused on capturing Osama bin Laden and giving young Arab boys reasons to NOT go blow themselves up, I believe our veterans should receive proper health care, I believe governors who allow the aerial shooting of wolves and allow hunters to go into wolf dens and shoot a handful of puppies point-blank should be removed from office and not moved up to VP (Sarah Palin, for those who don't know. Yes, I realize the issue is trivial to some but it shows a lot about character). I believe in Affirmative Action, I believe in Supreme Court judges who aren't activists (liberal or conservative) and who interpret the living Constitution according to our needs as a nation in the modern day, I don't believe in allowing a person's Christianity or lack-thereof to determine their worth in office, I don't believe in enacting laws based on a single religion's beliefs. I think that the young men and women who vote for McCain should be prepared to take their own butts over to the Middle East to fight the wars we've got going on indefinitely. (But if we absolutely need to go to war, then it's got to be important enough for everyone to go to war (a draft), not just the poor kids or those who volunteer. If it isn't important enough for your own sons and daughters to go fight for, then we do not need to go to war.) I don't believe in sacrificing my personal freedoms for a little security.

I believe no issue is black-and-white. There's no such thing as "Us versus Them". Simple solutions to complex problems don't exist. No one system is perfect nor is another evil and part of government is allowing a constant revision of the status-quo. I don't want my president to be of average intelligence; I want a president at least as smart as I am and hopefully more so.

I've got my pastries and my dinner and a notebook, and I'm settling in for the night to watch how the election progresses. I'll be staying up until a winner is announced (or until I simply fall asleep, as is entirely possible).

A man who believes that half the country isn't "Real America" isn't who we need at the head of this nation. We need someone who truly unites people, who inspires people to get involved when they normally wouldn't bother. Who causes chills up your spine when he speaks and makes you really believe in what he's saying, who carries himself like a president and doesn't lose his cool under fire and who doesn't run his campaign with sporadic jolts and flip-flops. There's only one man (or woman) on the ticket this year who fits that description, and it isn't the one calling himself a maverick.

Do you know how amazing it would be if we elected the first black president in the western world? There's a young boy whom I love very much who faces a tough future as a poor kid with black skin—what kind of hope might that give him to look up at the TV and see this guy who started out in a similar situation and ended up the president of the still most powerful nation on Earth? I want him to grow up in the America I'm hoping for today. Let's show the rest of the world why America is still the home of the brave, the land of dreams. When young people all over the world look to America and see a black man as its president, what kind of hope might that give them—what might that show them about Americans, in France where a black could never be elected because they're not of French ancestry, or in the Middle East and Africa where Al Qaeda recruit everyday using the idea of the US as a white, intolerant, oppressive nation? Let's show them that this is the 21st century, and we're moving forward. Let's be the shining city on the hill, and lead the way.

Monday, November 3, 2008

too many tire tracks in the sands of time

Halloween in Paris means the Americans dress up and go to bars, and the French just go to bars. I tagged along with my roommate and her friends to go to a bar in the 5th that has beer pong. There's a table set in the back room and we challenged the French girls who were playing for control of the table. Two American guys versus the two French girls, and we almost lost. But we didn't. I actually never played, although I bought a pitcher of beer for those of us spectators. We hung out there for most of the night, and I chatted with several girls from the program, making friends, that sort of thing. Then when some people headed out to a sangria bar a few streets over, and it was a bit too crowded for me. Most of us were hungry, though, so we went over to one of the hundreds of Greek restaurants in the area to get gyros. I love their gyros. They put french fries in them.

But after that the rest of the weekend has been spent resting. Saturday was a national holiday (All Saints' Day) and many things were closed, and today was a regular Sunday where most things are closed. I did meet up with a girl from my french class today to work on homework. We're studying the passive voice, and we're having a hard time grasping the rules because A) we've never studied this before, and B) the teacher didn't explain it well. But my host mom had some grammar books that she's lending us to figure it out (she didn't know how to do the homework either and she's a native speaker).

I've been listening to Disney songs in French on YouTube. The lyrics are . . . very different. But still very pretty.

Friday, October 31, 2008

light up, light up, as if you have a choice

I've gotten out of the swing of writing. And by writing, I mean fiction and/or poetry. Mostly I haven't had the time, but now that classes have started again, I have my daily trip to la-la land and start jotting down things in the margins of notes (next to the doodles—god, I'm such a great student. How exactly have I managed to do so well in school? Regardless, I got a 7.5 out of 10 on my essay test last week, and the teacher commented how I'm doing better than most of the other students who actually tested into the class, as opposed to me who asked to be moved up). So today after lunch, I braved the pouring rain and below 40 degree weather for a trip to the paperie, where they sell paper, notebooks, folders, stickers, and other assorted school-related supplies. I bought a notebook (with proper, horizontal-only lines) and a folder for all the loose papers I'm having to drag about. And because I couldn't resist, I bought a pack of glittery kitten stickers.I do miss my kitty.

I also found my favorite crêpe ever. It's got butter, sugar, and cinnamon, and tastes like ambrosia (nectar of the Gods, not the alcoholic stuff from BSG). Unfortunately, there's a creepy guy who kept hitting on me and not leaving me alone who works there, but I hope he's finally gotten the point that I'm not interested. Today he didn't try to corner me, which is good, but I also went in a group of kids, so that might've been it. I've sworn to myself never to go to that particular deli unless I'm with other kids. But the crêpe—best. ever. The dough was perfect, not too crispy and not too soft, with a nice squishy texture. The filling—I was seriously licking the wrapping where the butter/sugar/cinnamon mix had escaped. People on the metro were looking at me weird, but in my defense, I'm not was weird as the random mentally-ill who show up on metros shouting random phrases and/or sounds at the top of their llungs repeatedly.

But the writing! I intend to start back at that. And awhile ago (first or second post) someone (Laura?) commented that they'd like to read some of my poems. Well, you'll have to ask my parents for that. They have copies of them but I'm not posting my personal writing online, because there is the slim hope of one day getting published. Or if you want, leave your email address in a comment, and I'll send you one or two.

Tomorrow is Halloween. It's not really celebrated here, but I know a lot of the other AIFS kids are planning various activies for the holiday. I have no clue what I'll be doing, if anything. The weather forecast is cold and rainy which usually results in my retreating inside for a brief hibernation. But we'll see. I think I might finally be getting the hang of bundling up in a proper cold-weather-region fashion. Everyone laughs at me being the poor frozen Southern girl, but once you live in heat, you rarely go back (those who do have screws loose).

Hard to believe it's almost November. And that I've been here for over six weeks. Everyone else here leaves in mid-December; is it bad that I'm so glad to be staying the year? Three months is not enough time. I'm not rushed to do anything or experience everything, and I'm not just now getting used to life here only to have to brace myself for leaving shortly. A visit home will be nice though. I'll be back in the States sometime 21 decembre, and leave the 2 janvier, I think.

"Mais les yeux sont aveugles. Il faut chercher avec le coeur."

"Si tu viens, par exemple, à quatre heures de l'après-midi, dès trois heures, je commencerai d'être heureuse." -Le Petit Prince

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

i'll sing it one last time for you

In the middle of the afternoon, with the sun shining and bundled up in my winter coat, I walked outside and could see my breath. It didn't get out of the forties today, and tomorrow is the same (a high near 46). This is not my usual October weather, though I do realize there are parts of the US already colder (and with snow!?). One of the girls in my class is from Vermont, and she's excited for the wintery weather.

Not I. Although it's a nice excuse to go shopping for new jackets/coats/sweaters. I went by Montparnasse today and browsed a few stores (Zara, United Colours of Benetton, Pimpkie) but ended up only buying some essentials—a pair of jeans, two undershirts, and a sweater. Then I treated myself to a chocolate eclair from the boulangerie/patisserie on the corner of my street, where the bread and treats are made fresh, in-house, daily.

The eclair has a dough much like a Krispy Kreme donut, thick and gooey, with a chocolate creme filling, whipped fluffy and light, very delicately sweetened. On top is a chocolate icing that adds a nice, finishing burst of sweet with every bite. Absolutely delicious. Food in this country is probably my favorite part about being here, but just the fact that I'm in Paris is awesome enough.

I sat on the metro this morning on my way to class, remembering last spring when I'd sit in the hallway between classes, talking on phone to my mom and dad about how to make this study abroad thing work. How to pay for it, how to get the paperwork done, if I could manage to figure out the money aspect, worrying it was never going to actually pan out, and here I am now.

Despite the cold, despite the cost, I am so glad to be where I am. Eating this eclair . . .

tu chantes comme une casserole

I learned new idiomatic vocabulary today from a listening exercise in our workbook. To tell someone that they sing poorly, you say, literally translated, "You sing like a casserole (saucepan)." And an idiomatic phrase I already knew but find amusing is "Tu n'es pas dans son assiette aujourd'hui," which translates literally to "You're not on your plate today" and metaphorically to "Not in top form"/"Not feeling well"/etc.

Ah, translations.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

cause i know in the end it's worthwhile

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Maybe it's because I've actually attempted ballet, but I seem to be one of the few students tonight who appreciated the show. Not that I had a clue what was going on story-wise, but the dancers were fabulous. The orchestra too. I have to respect what they do because I can't do it. I've tried.

The photos are crappy quality because I took them with my iPhone. My camera is a bit big to lug around all day and night. But the Palais Garnier was amazing. We just don't have the same kind of tasteful extravagance much in the States. Don't get me wrong, the Blumethal is nice, but it gets its doors blown off by this place. I sit there on the edge of the balcony (I had a great seat), looking out at what looks like the movie set for Phantom of the Opera, certain that this has got to be a dream; I'm not really in Paris, seeing a ballet at the old opera house.

This is my life right now. Like a dream. It's sometimes lonely because try as I might, I don't seem to click with anyone (or rather, they don't seem to want to click with me). But it's nice, too, to learn that I can live and function on my own, and that I don't need other people in order to survive. It's funny because I don't notice too many others who are willing to go and do stuff on their own; so many people have chosen a person or two and clung on so tightly that they're literally never without the other. If they have to separate for class, they do so reluctantly, and only at the last minute, then meet up again as soon as class is over. Maybe I'm trying to look for a silver-lining on this cloud of being excluded, but I'm happy with who I am, and if other people aren't going to like me, I can't worry about it.

GO VOTE FOR OBAMA!

Monday, October 27, 2008

i know just where my feet should go and that's enough for me

Friday, October 24, 2008

sometimes i wonder where i've been

You know you're not in the States anymore when you regularly see nuns on the metro. I've been hopping on and off those trains, switching from one to another, walking through the stations without having to think about where I'm headed anymore, which is cool. Makes me feel a part of the city.

I also found a deli where I'm definitely taking people when they visit; it's called Paul, and it's been open since 1889. There are some things in the States that have been around that long, but few and far between. And nothing over there has sandwiches like this place. Or pastries. They have a "menu" where you can get a sandwich, a pastry, and a drink for 7,50 euro.

Tomorrow I have a test in my cours practique, which consists of a written essay on a subject the professor gives us at the start of class. Then we have a dictée, wherein the professor reads us a text and we have to write it out. No fun at all, but I suppose necessary. Next Tuesday we have a test on grammar too. I'm in real school again.

I'm reading Man in the Iron Mask, appropriate for my weekend trip to Vaux-le-Vicomte, where the movie with Leo Decaprio was filmed and which Louis XIV's ill-fated finance minister Fouquet built as his dream home, lived in for a few weeks, then met his unfortunate (and mysterious) end. How I love history. And though Dumas was rarely ever historically accurate, I do so love his novels too.

Life is good.

nothing lasts
life goes on
full of surpries
you'll be faced with problems of all shapes and sizes
you're going to have to make a few compromises
for now
but only for now

don't stress
relax
let life roll of your back
except for death and paying taxes
everything in life is only for now

each time you smile
it'll only last awhile
life may be scary
but it's only temporary

everything in life is only for now . . .

-Avenue Q, For Now

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

in a way, it's someone else's story

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

tell of adventures strange and rare

Dinner with my host family is fun. I can't understand half of what they say because French is hard enough to understand when their mouths aren't full, but the way they interact is cute. The brothers talk the most, and while one of them has a uni-brow, the other is quite attractive. Once a week, on Monday nights, my roommate and I eat a home-cooked meal with the family which we paid for at the beginning of the semester (actually, I still need to pay for mine. Oops). Tonight we had quiche and salad, then some bread and cheese, and finally dessert of chocolate mousse.

I switched the level of my French language course so I'm now in an advanced class, and it's much more challenging, which I was looking for. On the downside, I have to buy more books, but that's okay because I'll get to learn something this semester. We had our second class of art history, and I have my little student ID card that allows me to get into the Louvre whenever I want for free all year. Hell yes. Next Monday, we have class there. I cannot wait.

And on Friday, we started our phonetics course. It's one hour a day, everyday, every other week. This is a phonetics week. So we go in to the classroom for thirty minutes, and the teacher talks us through some aspect of pronunciation or what-have-you and gives us phrases or words that we'll use in the next half of the class. Then we move downstairs to the "lab" where there are tape recorders hooked up to each individual desk, and every student has their own headset, including a mic. We go through with the professor and repeat what she says, then rewind and listen to our own voices pronounce things. Next we play the recording of the teacher's voice, only this time we re-record our own pronunciations, and listen to them over again (ideally, they're better the second time). If there's time, the teacher then talks to us individually (through our headsets–so cool) about nit-picky things in our pronunciation. It's really a cool class, and I think it will help a lot. The professor told me I have excellent pronunciation, though, and my host family has said that my French is very pretty. So hooray for French immersion in elementary school!

Tomorrow, my goal is to go shopping for a new pair of jeans. I have lost weight in the past month (noticeably—my watch is significantly looser and my pants that fit perfectly are now way too large). Another stop will be the pharmacie so I can get some vitamins, as I'm not eating as well as I should, I don't think. I have a sore throat again, although that's likely because of lack of sleep and stress. I've been staying up way too late.

Buying a sketchbook is also at the top of my to-do list. There's an art supply store close to my classes, and I've been spending way too much time doodling in the corners (and smack-dab in the middle) of my notes, which can't be good. I'm sure my professors appreciate that. But in my painting class, we're looking at these images, and it makes me want to draw. If I turn my head out the window, I have an unobstructed view of the towers of Notre Dame. How can I possibly be here for nine months and not have a sketchbook? It'd be like my dad coming over here without a camera.

Other than that, the dollar is now 1.33 to the euro, so yay for failing economies. My life is relatively calm. This weekend is a day-trip to Fontainebleu and Vaux-le-Vicomte.