Monday, September 29, 2008

i wanna get lost in your rock and roll, and drift away

I'm going to the doctor tomorrow. I've only gotten worse throughout the day. Ugh. I have a fever, too. But my suitcase arrives in the afternoon, which is good, as I have my sweatshirt and more advil in it. I've been freezing all day and my host laughed when she saw the amount of blankets on my bed. I had soup for dinner, but couldn't eat much. My host's granddaughter leaves tonight to go back home with her parents, so it's gonna be just me and Mme Debroise. Thankfully, I do have a meeting tomorrow with AIFS people, so I'm going to ask the Resident Director for a doctor recommendation (preferrably one who speaks English––symptoms are hard to describe in French, other than saying my throat hurts and I'm sick). I'm also going to try and get someone to take pity on me and hang out with me later in the week. Find out where some other kids live, as I know some of them are nearby.

Saw the Effiel Tower today. Can't believe I'm actually in Paris. C'est zarbi.

I also had a slice of melon for dinner. Not any melon I've had in the States, though. It's called Spanish melon, apparently, and is very white inside, with a dark green, pale yellow striped exterior. It tastes completely different from Honeydew or Cantaloupe, much sweeter and incredibly good. Very juicy and has great texture.

paris

I'm living in an apartment in the 16th arrondissement with an older woman and her cat. Occasionally, her granddaughter stays over and has a room just down the hall from mine. Looking on a map, the Effiel Tower is just across the river from my new neighborhood. If there weren't buildings in the way, I could probably see it from my room, which looks like this:

Library - 1899
Library - 1900

Library - 1901
Library - 1902


There is only one bathroom (literally that, a room with a bath/shower and a sink) in the apartment, and only one toilet room (literally that, a toilet and a mini-sink). But that I can deal with seeing as there's really only going to be two of us living here. I have a cabinet in the kitchen to myself, as well as a shelf in the refrigorator. And best of all, I have internet. In my room. Wireless.

Seriously, I couldn't have asked for that. I'm probably one of few students in our study abroad group who has this. I was hoping for it, but realistically expecting many treks to an internet cafe or buying a pass to their "Neuf Wi-fi" which is where there are hotspots in Paris, and you buy a membership or register with them, and wherever you can access their hotspots, you can be online. In my room, I have a little bit of signal from Neuf Wifi, so that was an option.

Unfortunately, I woke up this morning (Sunday) with a sore throat and general sick feeling. I hope it's just a one-day thing and not strep throat (which it feels like) because that would be . . . bad. I'd have to go to the doctor tomorrow, after an orientation meeting with AIFS, and I'd have to explain, in French, what is wrong. Which I can sort of do, but not very coherently and I'm not sure if I'm saying the right thing or not. I don't know how to say "I just feel icky". I can say my throat hurts, and I think I'm sick, and that's about it. If anyone asks me questions, well, I'd better hope they're simple.

I'm planning on spending the rest of the day laying low. I'll be going out briefly for my host to explain the key to me (to the entrance to the building itself and then the entrance to the apartment) and show me the metro station. I have to be across town at the Irish Cultural Center (where our orientation is) by 10 AM tomorrow. I might also see if there's a pharmacie open where I can buy some throat numbing spray or somesuch. Whatever they have here.

Yesterday was . . . frightening. I got off the train, was handed an envelop containing the address of my host family, stood in line for a taxi surrounded by kids from the program making plans to meet up the next day (not including me, of course, they talked right over my head and avoided looking at me), and then––poof. I'm sitting in the backseat of the taxi, listening to the driver chat rapidly in French on his cell phone, looking out the window at a foreign city, and completely alone. Most of the other students had a roommate, so they left in taxis together, found their host families together, figured out how to get into the building together, and then got to sit in their room, together, and have the realisation hit them that they're here. I had to drag my bags to the door of the building, look at the names listed, find the right one and push the button next to it, hoping my host family was expecting me and would just let me in, not having a clue how the button worked (did I need to talk to the people over an intercom? If so, do you hold the button in, or just press it once?). I manage to get inside, and look around, only knowing that the apartment is on the first floor (which in the US would be the second floor––the French count the "first floor" as the ground floor, then the first floor is above that). Carrying my two bags up a winding, narrow staircase, I reach the top where Mme Debroise is standing, waiting for me and holding the door open to her apartment. She welcomes me and asks if I speak French, because she doesn't speak English at all.

After a brief tour of the apartment (it's circular, with three bedrooms including mine which is tucked in a nice little corner, and a kitchen, living/sitting room, and entertainment room––this one had the TV, a couch, a table for eating meals, etc.), Mme made me waffles with Nutella, and I went back to my room where I ate them and sat rather stupified.
I'm in Paris, with strangers, alone, and communicating even the basics takes effort. I have no way of getting in touch with the other students in the program, and only a vague idea of how to get around. I don't know what I'm allowed to do, what I'm supposed to do, and what I'm not. Then I wake up the next morning, sick.

Rationally, I know how cool this is. I'm in Paris. I have an awesome room, internet, a nice host, I'm living in a high-priced part of town, there's a cat (which makes everything better), and how many people ever have this opportunity? I'm going to get really good at speaking French, and I'm completely immersed in their culture. It's just a little (a lot) freaky right now.

Hopefully I adjust soon. And hopefully, this isn't strep and will go away very quickly.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

if i couldn't laugh, i just would go insane

Keeping up with the going-ons in the US is hard to do when the internet is spotty and the TV doesn't cover US news, particularly economic. WaMu collapsing is no surprise, but geez. Is this crisis thing going to end anytime soon, or is it one of those chain reactions that has to burn itself out? Apparently also our government attempted a bailout deal that Republicans backed out on despite Bush preaching bipartisanship and fixing the problem ASAP. And while Obama asked tons of questions at the meeting, McCain sat there quietly, rather stupidly, and did nothing. Good job. Two thumbs up to Palin, too, who's stupidity is showing. Way to go, Republicans.

I'm distracting myself from thinking about meeting my host family tomorrow. I've managed to get all packed for the next four days and get my main suitcase to the AIFS folks who are having it delivered to Paris by freight. By the time most of you are up and about tomorrow, I'll be arriving in Paris at about 3:20 in the afternoon.

What if my host family doesn't have internet? Or what if they don't have heat? What if I have to share a room with someone I really can't stand for more than a few hours at a time? What if I'm way far away from La Sorbonne and have an hour commute every morning at rush hour on the Metro? What ifs. Although, tomorrow night, apparently the host family makes a special dinner for their new foreign student, and I'm excited. Real, homecooked food.

I'm also watching, one episode at a time, season 8 of Smallville. Hooray for iTunes. Here's the thing: the show basically sucks. It's unintentionally humourous. Clark Kent can't act, although he's hot. He's got this perpetual puppy dog expression, and spent a good 7 years pining after the most obnoxious girl to have ever lived on a TV show. There's a new character to the Superman mythos who serves as another journalistic influence in Clark's life––his best friend Chloe. At first, for about 3 seasons, I liked her character. She had spunk, and was more intelligent than the other girl. Now, she's just gotten obnoxious too. And pathetic. She can't do anything without Clark's help, and visa-versa.

So why do I watch, you wonder? Good question. While babysitting this summer, the kids watched all 7 previous seasons and got me caught up. And I fell in love with their version of Lois Lane. She is my favourite Lois of all time. The daughter of a three-star general, she kicks butt literally, she's snarky, and she isn't in awe of Clark. She's probably the only woman on the show who isn't. So I watch because I hold out hope that she will whip Clark's butt into shape and the Superman we all know and (some of us, anyway) love will emerge from this whimpy, whiny guy. The banter between Lois and Clark is cute, too.

Like I said, distractions. Five hour train ride in a cramped compartment with these kids, here I come.

And a note on bizarre things here:

1. Un americain: it's a sandwich, served on a baguette, with hamburger meat, lettuce, tomato, cheese, mustard, ketchup, and french fries. That's right, the fries go on the sandwich, not on the side.

2. The cafe on campus serves beer. It also hands out wine-bottle openers if someone has a bottle out in the courtyard, and will provide cups. That would never fly on a US college campus.

Friday, September 26, 2008

and the voices of those who stand looking

I'm sitting in my dorm room eating pastries and drinking wine with my roommate and her friend. We got dressed up and walked downtown to a local bakery that had expensive but amazing pastries. A sort of good-bye treat because we leave Cannes Saturday morning.

So this morning in class I had a little disagreement with my professor. There was some exercise where we made sentences using specific prepositions and using an opening. I made the sentence, "This is the school where I killed a lot of time". She got upset and told me I can't use that phrase in relation to school (to kill time) because there is always something to do in school and you're always learning something or there for a reason (thus, it isn't wasting time). I argued that she's never been to school in the States.

I'm also managing to impress people with my drawing skills, such as they are. Our oral practice for the week has been working in groups of two on a film scenario. I chose the genre of animated movies (à la Disney) and my story takes place in Ancient Alexandria. So while my partner records our dialogue for specific scenes (we have to perform them tomorrow, by the way, and the teacher expects them to be memorized. Ha. Ha ha ha), I was drawing our main characters. My professor suggested I pursue drawing for a living. I was like, "No, thanks. Been there, done that." It's amazing, though, that I haven't completely lost that skill because it's been years since I've really drawn much.

We arrive in Paris and are handed an envelop with the address of your host family. Then you're pushed in a taxi and sent on your way. Eeek. I'm praying to get a place in the first 6 arrondissements. Asking a little much? Yes, possibly. And next friday, there's an arranged trip up to Chartres for the day, all fees covered by AIFS. Of course, I'm going. After that is a weekend trip to Normandy, St. Malo, and Mont-St.-Michel. I think I'm going to that, although I don't know for sure yet. It costs a lot, and it has to have a minimum of 15 people to sign up for it in order for it to happen. Most people here aren't interested in going, I'm getting the idea.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

and that may be all there is to know

I'm going to have serious buns of steel come the end of the semester. Today I walked up a nearly vertical hill. The daily trek into downtown Cannes involves climbing up four hills. In short, there is a lot of walking involved in getting yourself around over here. With Paris will come hundreds of Metro steps.

Continuing my adventures, I went to St. Paul de Vence this afternoon after class. Despite being exhausted and cold, I decided I'd hate myself if I didn't go, as the girls I've been hanging out with chose to do (stay in bed all day on the computer). Not that there's anything wrong with that, but we're in southern France, and will only be here two more days. The trip to St. Paul was free, including the price of admission to a modern art museum called Fondation Maeght. And no, I have no idea how to pronounce that M name. But the museum was cool, even if you had to buy a 2,50 euro ticket in order to take pictures inside the grounds (I opted out. Photographs of someone else's work isn't really my style, nor was the lighting very good. And I don't care much for odd, misshapen sculptures or splashes of paint on canvas that a child could do, quite literally). As you can probably guess, I'm not a fan of modern or contemporary art, particularly when it becomes abstract. I think it's a cop-out, unless done superbly (and I've seen little of that sort). But there was one artist there whose stuff I did like. His name was Marc Chagall, and he's actually buried in the St. Paul cemetary. His paintings are very distinct, surreal in a way I like. I bought a postcard of one of his paintings, which I'll send to my parents or something so everyone can see if they're willing to bug my parents about it.

St. Paul itself was amazing. It's one of France's walled cities, built first by Greeks and Romans, then added to in the Middle Ages. The streets are narrow, winding, often breaking off into steep stairways that give you a view of the surrounding countryside overtop the tiled roofs (Speaking of tiles roofs, we passed a McDonalds done in that Mediterranean style––I love this place). Because the above mentioned girls stayed home, I was on my own pretty much the entire day (again). Which was fine, I could wander and weave as I chose, and didn't have to try and keep up with a conversation; a convenient thing as my mind tends to follow my feet in the wandering and weaving department. I still can't get my brain around the fact that people live in that city. Like, live there day in and day out. Talk about heaven. I wonder if that's where history majors go when they die: a place filled with old things.

But when it was time to meet up with the bus, and we were clumped in a group on the outside of the city walls, I started chatting with one of the girls from my class. She asked me a lot about photography, and the pictures I was taking. I got introduced to her friends that were right there, and I had pleasant company for the walk back to the bus (she also recommended I watch the movie Sabrina, which I've already been told about once by someone I can't remember before I left the States. So apparently, I really need to see this movie). It was refreshing to feel like people my age aren't all bad, even if I did spend the bus ride listening to the kids around me talk about how much alcohol they're going to buy and consume tonight, tomorrow night, etc. These kids need a serious kick in the ass; they're planning on showing up hung over to meet their host families in Paris. That is just––completely beyond me. I can't even grasp at whatever mindset they inhabit.

Ah, well.

On the way back to Cannes, I had a scary thought: I have to meet my host family Saturday. Realistically, I knew this, but it suddenly hit me that it's two days away. What if they're evil? Or, more likely, they think I'm evil?

One of those "ah, well"s, again.

I'm reading, in case any of you are curious, Les Royaumes du Nord. Translated, the title means The Kingdoms of the North––it's the French name for one of my favorite novels ever: The Golden Compass. That series is the best I've ever read. I couldn't resist buying them in French, and it's always good practice, right?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

it's not enough to survive, one has to be worthy of surviving

It costs 4 euro to do one load of laundry here at the college. Which is expensive.

I'm sitting in the courtyard waiting for my laundry to be washed and hoping I don't have to kick some girl's butt if she dumps my clothes out of the machine as soon as the clock has run out. I have nails and it cost me 4 euro to wash all that.

Ah, well.

I gave my presentation today on BSG. My teacher was pretty much confused about the whole concept, although apparently I spoke the French correctly. She wasn't impressed that I chose to talk about the TV show instead of Ancient Egypt, but the girl who went before me talked about Italy, and it was incredibly boring. Not because Italy itself is boring, but because a 30 minute speech on it is unless the speaker is eloquent and captivating, which she was not, and I don't think myself to be. Particularly when it's in another language, and most people speak haltingly.

Besides, I had much more fun and was much more willing to prepare for the presentation when it was BSG and not Ancient Egypt, which is so complicated to translate into French because they have entirely different names and ways of divding time and things like that I'd have to relearn before I could possibly talk about it. And apparently the question I asked of the class at the end of my speech was too difficult for their brains to comprehend, because the teacher was like, "Oooh, that's too hard." I just asked what defines a human/humanity? What makes us human versus something like the cylons, who can also die, feel emotions, cry, bleed, etc. Where or what is the line?

And here I thought the French liked philosophical questions. Pardon me for expecting actual thought from people (other questions posed after various other presentations: What's your favourite type of car? Where would you like to visit in Italy? etc.).

I'd like to just head on to Paris, now. Not that I don't like Cannes, but the people are driving me bonkers. (Once I'm in Paris, I won't have to see them for the most part unless I want to.) And the meals are just plain bad, not to mention how sick I am of having cereal every morning. We had salmon pasta this afternoon, and while I don't like salmon, it was at least fresh (as it should be––the ocean is right there). But the pasta itself was just . . . ugh. Bland and sitting heavy in my stomach. I'm getting a panini for dinner. Back to the Paris thing, though, I'd like to just get settled and not have to worry about having to repack in a week or so. And taking a shower in my own shower (not communal––I've survived so far, but we'll see how much longer).

Although they're using a trucking service to take our luggage up there, and it gets picked up Friday afternoon. We're allowed one bag on the train (so in my case, my backpack) and the rest have to be sent. The trucks don't arrive with our stuff until Monday or Tuesday. You do the math and figure out how many outfits and essential toilettries I need to be able to shove in my backpack (including a computer and all its various accessories). Too many.

Our teacher has said we likely won't have another test in this class, that we'll just get a grade for our performance in-class, which sucks. I was hoping for another test (on the conditionel verb tense) because I know it really well. Instead, we're going to study the subjonctif (ugh––I requested that. It makes very little sense. A whole other verb tense for no reason other than to be difficult. It sounds pretty much the exact same as the present tense) and les pronoms relatifs (que, qui, dont, laquelle, lequel, lesquelles/lesquels, etc.), which I already know. Only three classes left.

It's hard to grasp sometimes that while my day is halfway over, the day over there is just beginning. Bizarre.

PS. The laundry room here smells like the inside of a barn.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

youth is like diamonds in the sun

I'm doing homework. Tomorrow I have to give a 15 minute oral presentation on the subject of my choosing, and I changed my mind. At first, I was going to talk about Ancient Egypt, but that got complicated, so I simplified it: now I'm talking about Battlestar Galactica! Hooray! And I'm going to have lots of pictures to present. Is that incredibly dorky or what? But honestly, the show is good. I'm not a fan of Sci-fi shows, and this one is great. It's critically acclaimed, thank you very much. Plus, Lee Adama is hot.

I'm extremely out of doing-homework practice.

Also, today we skipped lunch in the cafeteria and went to the school's little café to buy paninis, which were excellent. Real food, mmmmm.

Apparently a lot of people are getting sick and/or skipping classes. Not surprising. I'm finding myself with a headache, but I think that has more to do with actually using my glasses for once. There isn't much else to say. Yesterday was a day of rest, as it's intended to be, because over here, not much is open on Sundays. And I had homework to do.

This time next week I'll be in Paris.

Monday, September 22, 2008

show the world they were wrong

monaco


Sunday, September 21, 2008

à la fin de la journée

I'm frozen. It started pouring rain as we were driving back to Cannes, and the bus had to drop us off across the street and up a little (the entrance is on a one-way street that buses aren't allowed down), then I got stuck trying to get around a group of kids who decided to take a leisurely stroll through the very cold rain.

But that was a rather dreary end to an otherwise lovely day. I don't like getting up early, and it was necessary, but so worth all the struggle. Monaco is like southern France, only cleaner and more on the extravagantly coiffed side. Less traffic, less people, and less tacky ads or posters bordering the streets. Just flowers, and decorative railings. Of course, I only saw a select portion of Monaco––the area around the exotic gardens and the palace. I'm sure it's an expensive neighborhood. In fact, most of my pictures of Monaco are of the gardens, or views from the gardens, because I spent the majority of my time there. I appear to have been partially abandoned by the group of girls I've been spending time with, and as a result, was pretty much on my own all afternoon.

And it was marvelous. For once, I didn't have to worry about being left behind or annoying people when I stop every five seconds to take a picture. I can do what I want, on my schedule, and I don't have to play polite by asking others what they want to do. When my feet hurt from walking, I could just stop. Wherever I wanted. After I bought my obligatory postcards, and took enough photos of the cathedral and streets, I retreated to a small, shaded bench in the gardens, overlooking the Mediterranean. The college packed us a bagged lunch (water bottle, an apple, a banana, a bag of chips, some cookies, and a sandwich that pretty much consisted of bread and mayonnaise), so I plopped down, ate, and enjoyed the fact that I was in Monaco, looking out across the Mediterranean. There were bird all over the place, pretty white ones, not pigeons, and they'd chirp as they hopped from tree to tree; the sun was shining; the water sparkled white. And it was Monaco! I'm getting the opportunity to see so many amazing things, to go places I've always only read about.

I must also admit to being overjoyed at hearing buses were no longer allowed to drive past the Monte Carlo Casino, which disappointed and pissed off the two-thirds of the kids who only came along to see it and/or gamble. Laughing quietly to myself, I kept my eyes out the window as we drove across very elevated mountaintops to reach Eze.

Because I'm sure most of you aren't aware (I wasn't), Eze is a small town that, along with Grasse, is known as the perfume capital of the world. They make the perfumes that are sold at exorbitant prices in Paris, New York, etc; and Eze is home to one of the oldest perfume factories in France––it was started in 1747. It was also a walled Medieval town up on top of a mountain, which is somewhat well preserved today. Several miles worth of walking up a steep incline was worth not only the breathtaking view of all the surrounding valleys and the ocean, but also for the tiny, narrow streets of buildings with tiled roofs and wooden shutters, old stone foundations and plants growing up and down the walls. Literally, everywhere I turned, there was a picture to take.

Fortunately, my camera battery lasted just until I got to the bottom of the mountain on my way back down.

I don't know if it's just because I study this stuff (having a rather unhealthy obsession with things and places hundreds or thousands of years old) that makes it so fascinating or what. I hope not. Except I kinda do. I don't want everyone to like what I like, is that selfish? I'd enjoy talking to people about it, but I hate it when things I love become trendy. That's when they get ruined. Take pirates, for example. So if there were just a few educated people who liked to discuss historical or philosophical or what-have-you subjects, that would be great.

On the way back to Cannes, I was convinced half the students studying abroad with me were alcoholics. They drink all. day. long. Every place we go, they have to stop and buy a bottle of wine, vodka, beer, rum, etc, and they carry it with them like a precious object (more precious than, say, their passport or their wallet). It's not like they sip the darn things either; they chug. Pass it around to their friends, and chug some more. (Furthermore, I don't know how they afford it; one girl bought a double shot of whisky for 15 euro. I squirm at spending that much on essential food.)

That's when I came to an epiphany. They're not alcoholics, yet. They drink because they're scared to not do so. First of all, it's an automatic group of friends, like joining a sorority or fraternity. No matter where you go, there's a group of kids who will go out, party, drink, and voilà! A group to belong to. Second of all, alcohol usually makes you feel good. Tipsy makes talking to people easier, makes doing things you normally wouldn't easier, and takes away that little voice in the back of your head that says, "Don't say that, you'll sound stupid! Don't do that, people will think you're stupid!" (Unless I'm the only one with that voice, in which case, scratch that last.) And it temporarily gives you energy. So what happens if they don't drink constantly? They'd feel lonely sometimes, sad sometimes, they'd doubt and worry sometimes, and sometimes they'd feel stupid around their peers, which makes them less confident. Basically, they'd feel like I do frequently: normal. So they drink.

It's not much different, reasoning-wise, from me taking anti-anxiety meds. But I think I prefer my method.

Sorry, guys, I think a lot.

Speaking of thinking, I've been wondering: why is it that people and me don't mix? People my age, I should clarify, but sometimes people in general. It's only been a week, and already the girls I've been hanging out with have ditched me. People in this study abroad group pretty much avoid me, as far as I can tell. I'm not upset or hurt by it, honestly (and I know, everyone's going to say "Lie!" but it's really the truth. I'm simply pondering on a curiosity basis). I'm just, frankly, curious as to why. I don't stink; I'm nice (to the vast majority of people); I'm intelligent and well-spoken (maybe that's the problem?); I'm not hideous; I like to think I'm somewhat of an interesting person; I'm open to what others want to do (even if I don't, necessarily. I'm willing to compromise). So what's up? And, okay, yeah, I tend toward quiet, but that can't be that big a deal, right?

This is not a pity-post. This is the usual glimpse into my mind and thoughts. They tend to go all over the place, as you can probably tell.

Did I mention that everyone here has a dog? And that those dogs go everywhere with them? Sometimes on a leash, but sometimes not. It's bizarre. Every other person on the street has a dog. There's another question for you: what's the attraction? Cats are much less work, much smarter, and much cuter (no offense to dog-lovers).

Oh! Also, I bought perfume in Eze. It's about half the price there than it would be in Paris, so I thought it was a reasonable expenditure. 38 euro for 4 bottles of perfume, plus one thrown in free. This isn't cheap perfume, either. It's the fancy stuff they sell in Nordstrom's and Neiman Marcus (spelling on that one? I'm not a huge fan of the store, myself). Some of it's for you, Mom!

Off to upload photos. I can't post nearly all the ones I want to (I took some two hundred), but I'll post my favorites, and the ones that best show off the trip.

I am so incredibly lucky. Few people ever get to do things like this.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

requested photo of new purse

if we weren't all crazy, we would go insane

Here are some photos from Sanremo:


One thing I very consciously miss from the States is the access to water fountains. The only way to get water here when you're out shopping or somesuch is to buy a bottle of it. At restaurants, you have to specify that you want tap water, emphasis on tap, in order not to be given a very expensive bottle. This is where our cafeteria is finally coming in handy for something. They have a water machine that dispenses fresh, cold, filtered water. I've been using it to fill up my water bottles already purchased. I've also been––don't tell––stealing fruit from the cafeteria, because technically it's forbidden to take food out of there. However, I figure I've paid for three meals a day here, and I don't eat my share, so it's only fair to take some fruit here and again.

And now I have some more philosophizing to do. In my French class, one of the oral activities we did was answer a series of questions the professor wrote on the board. Some of these questions were like "What would you do with 1 million euro?" or "What's the most important thing you possess?" or "What's a dream (literal or metaphorical) that you've had?". I answered the questions quite honestly: I'd travel to Egypt and Greece, see the sights of the ancient world, if I had a million euro, and my most important possession is my computer, because it has all my writings, songs, photos, etc. For the dream question, I answered in the literal: I've been dreaming of water in various forms practically since birth. There were a few others who answered in a similar manner, but surprisingly many of my classmates took the philanthropist route. Their answers ranged from world peace as their greatest dream, to wishing to know what someone wanted just by looking at them so they could make people smile. They said their greatest possession was their family (not a possession) or their life and health (which I should think is a given. I'm sure there are few people in the world going "Damnit! I'm alive and I've got great health! This sucks!") Please come up with more original or at least personal answers. That's the whole point of such exercises. Think what the world would be like if every person answered the same:



Q: What do you want most in the world?
A: World peace and happiness.

Q: What's your greatest possession?

A: My family and my health.

Q: What's the greatest gift you've ever received?

A: My life.

Seriously, folks. Those answers apply to most people. Pick something else, please. There's no need to impress with how great a human being you are.

Mais demain, j'irai à Monaco! But tomorrow, I go to Monaco! There will be photos of that too. I can't believe how many countries I've been to in the past week. The US, England, France, Italy, and now Monaco! Je suis une voyageuse du monde! I'm a world traveller! And I'm slowly but surely picking up some more French than I started out with.

And I bought a purse today at Galleries Lafayette. It's plum with shiny leather. My first frivolous and non-essential purchase. Okay, and I will also admit to buying these shiny gold Disney princesses stickers to put on my notebook, planner, and French cell phone in order to be able to tell them apart from everyone else's. There are four of us who have the exact same French phone (we're not talking about my iPhone). Now mine sports a pretty Belle in her flowing golden dress.

sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven

Yesterday after class, a few girls and I hopped over to the train station, bought tickets to San Remo, Italy, and spent the evening in a small Italian town eating dinner (ravioli with pesto) then getting gelato and hopping back on the train to Cannes. San Remo (or Sanremo) is on the Italian Riviera, another harbor town with half-cobblestone streets and cafés that spill their tables out into tiny alleys or public squares. Palm trees with at least forty fronds each are all over, very distinct shadows against the sky particularly at night, and cypress trees with their canopies that reach out across the roads and buildings. At ground level, the city looks a lot like Charleston with the shops, street lamps, ads, posters, graffiti, and pedestrians. But then you look up, and there are shutters in faded blue and green paint, elaborately sculpted window panes, wrought iron railings to small balconies, and tiled roofs distinctly Mediterranean. And all around you are sheer rock cliffs that surround the city, mountains near and far on the horizon.

The port is filled with boats, yachts and sails alike, and unfortunately is mostly surrounded by parking lots. Like most Italian towns, though, it had several piazza's with fountains, and this city especially is known for it's public flower arrangements, not to mention the ones in the window boxes. Their whole world is so much more colorful than the United States. People walk here because there's stuff to see, because there are places to walk to and hang around outside. We need more of that, without having to drive anywhere. Cafés lining the square and people just sitting at small bistro tables, sipping wine and eating bread.

I ordered a pasta with pesto because supposedly that region is famous for its pesto. The food was amazing, which only made today's lunch at the school (an attempt at spagetti à la bolognaise) that much more disappointing. We had about three hours in the city before we had to catch the train back, so we explored the docks and the piazzas, ate gelato, and took pictures. When we got to the place where we had to change trains, however, we realized there was a two-hour layover (which we sort of knew in the first place, but it hadn't really sunk in). So we were stranded for two hours in Ventimiglia, between 9:30 and 11:30 PM, when nothing was open, sketchy men were about, and there was absolutely nothing to do. None of us had brought books or iPods for entertainment either. Thankfully the train station had a little store and I bought a coke to keep me awake until we got back to the Collège and our dorms (we got in Cannes shortly after 1 AM and took a taxi over to the school).

Despite having class the next morning at 9 AM and getting to sleep around 2, I'm glad I went. It was 30 euro round-trip for the train, and we got to wind through the French and Italian waterfront villages. We even stopped at a train station in Monaco (where I'll be visiting for real on Saturday). The mountains are breathtaking; it makes you realize why no one really left their home towns much, way back when. The train cuts through the mountains, but walking them? I don't think so. Driving them either––talk about perilous. And there are towns built on such steep inclines, it's amazing those houses don't just slide right down. They look like they might.

This morning wasn't as fun. I had to drag myself up (and I knew I had a dictation first-thing in class, so I had to not only be conscious, I had to be fully-processing) and to breakfast. Regardless of my exhaustion, it would not have been an option to skip. This is a two-week course, in which we are graded, and attendance is mandatory. Lo and behold, I get to breakfast and half the people are still in bed (I next see them at lunch, asking each other what they did in class and each responding, "I don't know, didn't go, I was sleeping").

That's when the guy-who-shall-remain-nameless walks in. He shall remain nameless partially because I'm not sure I know his name and partially because it's not nice to give names. But he comes over to the table to my left, wearing his clothes from last night and asking anyone if they know what happened to his wallet. Apparently, his pockets were empty this morning when he woke up in a strange hotel lobby, sans wrist-watch, school ID, wallet, and other valuables. This, my dear readers, is why I don't get drunk.

But in my week here abroad with my fellow American students, I've been having a strong sense of déja vu: it's like freshman year of college all over again. Not only are people clumping into their stereotypical groups and clinging (more on this to come), many kids have lost any and all control/common sense/dignity/responsibility/maturity they once possessed (although it is in question whether or not any of them ever did. Unlikely). I call them kids (despite most being between the ages of 19-21) because they are. Age isn't a factor here; mature sensibilities are. It is simple common sense that dictates you don't go to a foreign country, get plastered with people you've known a week, and black-out to the point where you don't wake up where you're supposed to in the morning. And if you must get trashed, do so with the understanding that, come morning, you have class. You are studying abroad.

On to the grouping. It always amazes me (and it really shouldn't anymore) how no matter where you go, there are very distinct groups, and people are very protective of their group. If you aren' t part of their group, you're a "Them", which is not a good thing to be unless you have your own group. It's a neverending circle.

There are the grunge kids, the preppy "popular" kids, the wanna-be preppy "popular" kids, the cheaply-dressed girls, and the macho men. And they are recognizable right off the bat. For instance, grunge kids: they're the ones whose make-up looks several days old, hair perpetually unbrushed with the "morning after" up-do, clothes baggy and mis-matched (I think they think the outfits go––they think incorrectly), and usually with an accompanying cigarette hanging between their fingers. The preppy, "popular" kids: blonde hair, neatly coiffed, collared shirts and layered sweaters on top, skirts or pants (not jeans), and sometimes a fancy belt. The wanna-bes: noticeably fake-blonde hair, usually somewhat overweight, knock-off brand clothes that are too tight and sometimes messy make-up, not unlike the grunge crowd. The cheaply-dressed girls, well, we all know what I mean by cheap, right? Then the macho men who, despite not being gay, seem always to prefer the company of other such men. They boast loudly and crudely of their lack of memories regarding the night before, and wear pretty much the same thing everyday.

I've left out the dorks. These, I feel, are sometimes mis-judged and most times not. I am an intelligent person who values knowledge and education, enjoys a good book or conversation on philosophy, religion, history, etc. But I brush my hair; I don't resign myself to frumpy, loose sweatshirts and pants; I take care that my eyebrows don't swallow my face (not that they could anyway, thin, light things that they are); and while I do typically prefer my own company to that of my peers, I make efforts to find others of similar mindsets. The dorks, so defined because they don't apply the rules of fashion to themselves and spend time either perched in front of a computer or book whenever they're out in public (they never talk to people unless they absolutely have to), are also as easy to pinpoint.

Understand I have nothing against any of these people, or their need for a collective. To each his or her own, I try to stick to. I comment on this because it's what I observe. Obviously, I'm generalizing. There are those few who don't have such simple placements. But surprisingly, the above descriptions are not exaggerated. Monty Python had is right: we are not individuals. We see molds and go "Oh! There's one I think I could fit in. Here I go!" This happens around the age of 11, sometimes as late as 14 or 15. It's a rare person who actually changes their cast––and kudos to them. I'm not sure where I fit in, and I don't really think I do (then again, no one does, and that's the problem, isn't it? We all think we're so unique, and we're not for the most part. It's like how most people in the world consider themselves of above average intelligence. Most are wrong, seeing as how average implies half are below).

Anyway, just some thoughts on people for you to peruse. Today in class, I got my first test back, and I received 17/20. Let me explain the French grading system to you: everything is out of 20. 10 is average, literally. It's a much tougher system of grading than ours. Students are pleased to get 13s, 14s, and above a 17 is practically unheard of unless you're one of those super-students that never sleeps and has to actually, you know, study. I'm not as familiar with studying as I probably should be, I admit. But I'm pleased with my grade, I think it's one of if not the highest in the class, and if I can keep it up, that would rock.

I have more pictures to share, naturally, but they'll have to wait until I get a stronger internet connection. Or any internet connection. It's seriously shoddy wireless on this campus.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

voice le collège

Pictures of the college itself and the courtyard now, (later pictures of Cannes and the Mediterranean):

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